You haven’t heard from me in a while because every time I sit down to write something … everything changes and I find myself experiencing a deep knowing that now is not the time to attach to doing anything in particular.

What I mean by that is that we are in a time of great change. So much in our external world that we have counted on for comfort and security has been irrevocably disturbed and altered. And the desire to DO something about it, fix it, stop it, change it … is primal. It’s fuelled by fear and won’t give the peace we seek.

The day to day doing, doing, doing has been replaced by more time to BE, to sit and reflect and observe and allow. Yet our fearful ego minds chatter incessantly … “I just want things to go back to the way they were…” “I want to get back to some semblance of normal…” “I’m done with this…”

There is no going back to the way it was. I know deep in my heart and soul that we have all created this whole reality with love and wisdom and purpose.

Every single one of us.

And no, we did not consciously choose this … and create it we did.

So the question isn’t “How do I get back to normal?” but rather “What is the purpose of this for ME?”.

What I am conscious of is that this is the time to go within. To let go of the fearful thinking and feelings and allow this process to unfold as it is and will continue. To get present to the whole of me, to feel my feelings and let them move through me without turning them into facts. To accept this whole reality, to allow it and appreciate that I have caused this with loving intention and there is nothing I have to do.

When my fearful ego mind demands I get into action, DO something new/creative etc, etc., I stop and check in with my knowing … and so far what I keep getting is
“not yet…”.

So I choose to hold my nerve and keep trusting the whole of me and the whole process.

There really is nothing else to do!